grrfeisty: sad rox

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

sad rox

i try to maintain a pretty positive attitude...i laugh at every stupid thing i do [which happens quite often]. but here is some truth...my rough days suck.
i couldn't turn my brain off today. thinking about my work...am i doing things right? should i be doing something else? what will next year be like? am i going to cry when the last batch of kiddos i know [and have wonderful relationships with!] leave?
i couldn't skate this evening...not against actual derby girls. sure i threw a couple girls down, but as soon as i grew tired, i was flattened out. every. single. second. or i was being yelled at. from every. single. angle. for the first time my knees hurt, my shoulder hurts, and my pride hurts...bad.
i feel extremely confused in 2011.
sigh.
tomorrow will be better.


anyways, just wanted to show you a different side of me.
<3 roxy














p.s. i'm not quitting. it's just...today....was not easy. mentally and physically.


[the only positive note, was that i definitely practiced my blocks. which i did mention i needed to work on..]

22 comments :

  1. Sorry you had a rough day. When my days suck I try to remember that bad days make you appreciate the good days even more. Love that you found the positive in the bad. Keep your chin up!

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  2. feel better, pretty lady :) <3 winter blues suck!

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  3. This weather in Houston is pretty crummy, too! I hope tomorrow is brighter for you in every way.

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  4. When it comes to work you are definitely doing the right thing. I am studying to become a teacher right now, and really, schools need more people in charge who really care about the kids like you do. Saying good bye to students is hard, but think about how much of an impact you are going to be able to have!!!

    I think what you are doing is great, keep your head high, and as you said, tomorrow will be better :)

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  5. tomorrow will be awesome! *hugs*

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  6. Sorry you had a rough day lovely. We're in full speed post Christmas run so my to do pile is just as big as my done pile and it doesn't seem to get any smaller! Yay!

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  7. Januari tends to have that effect on me too.

    Hope you'll feel better and happier soon!

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  8. I have been feeling the same way about school or a couple of months now. Not happy in the classroom, wondering if I really want to stay in education. Technology is my passion but it is hard to find a position related to it in my area.

    I hope your vision becomes clear about the future. It's rough, I know.

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  9. That deflated feeling after a bad day is the worst! But we learn from the bad days, right? I hope tomorrow is better!

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  10. Unfortunately, we all have those days, & it can be so difficult to bounce back from them with grace & optimism. Hoping today's much better for you & much easier on you. <3

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  11. Everyone has to have days like these sometimes, don't be too hard on yourself. I'm sure you'll figure things out. And you only recently started with Roller Derby, right? Admittedly I know nothing about it but you must be pretty good if you're on the league team. I'm sure you'll be kicking butt once you've gotten more experience.

    I hope 2011 picks up for you soon. By the way, I'm loving your new hair! :)

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  12. Everybody has those days don't worry, I'm sure everything will work out for the best :D *hugs*

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  13. thanks everyone. i truly appreciate all of the nice messages and vibes you sent my way. :)

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  14. You and me both, girl. Today was tough. But I put those babies to bed and treated myself to some make-up shopping just before the mall closed. Then I went to the gym and ran. Now I'm drinking wine. Tomorrow will be better.

    And you always have your looks for when it gets really rough. Look it the mirror, sweetheart.

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  15. you gotta have a bad day every once in awhile. you'll get through it. :) hope you feel better!

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  16. Hang in there, we all have those days. I had a couple earlier this week, overwhlemed. It will get better!

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  17. thank y'all for all the e-love. you guys are awesome!! :D

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  18. A quote I read the other day made me feel a little happier with my struggles perhaps it will work for you to -

    Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.

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  19. Hey girl! Keep your head up. I say give the job 2 years and if you still feel that way, see if you can go back? I don't know how things work like that.. we didn't have department heads in our HS and MS. Could you start some kind of after school program with math for the kids so you could still see and get to know them- have the best of both worlds? I do think that we need passionate people making decisions for the kids, but I also know that it would be really hard to leave the kids and the relationships you create. Obviously you are/were a wonderful teacher to care so much about them! Keep your head up! xo, B

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  20. oh girl!!! That is the story of my life! cheer up, you are way to fab-o, creative, and hawtttt to be sad. And if you do f*ck the haters! You are human!

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  21. i swear, y'all are too awesome. thank you :)

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