i try to maintain a pretty positive attitude…i laugh at every stupid thing i do [which happens quite often]. but here is some truth…my rough days suck.
i couldn’t turn my brain off today. thinking about my work…am i doing things right? should i be doing something else? what will next year be like? am i going to cry when the last batch of kiddos i know [and have wonderful relationships with!] leave?
i couldn’t skate this evening…not against actual derby girls. sure i threw a couple girls down, but as soon as i grew tired, i was flattened out. every. single. second. or i was being yelled at. from every. single. angle. for the first time my knees hurt, my shoulder hurts, and my pride hurts…bad.
i feel extremely confused in 2011.
tomorrow will be better.
anyways, just wanted to show you a different side of me.
p.s. i’m not quitting. it’s just…today….was not easy. mentally and physically.
[the only positive note, was that i definitely practiced my blocks. which i did mention i needed to work on..]